Hanging in there, nerves and all
I have to admit that once again I’m nervous as hell about going to college. I’m certain that I can handle the pressure, because let’s just face it, being married to a soldier who deploys to Iraq every other year, prepares you for such things. I’m just wondering if I can stick it out for the long run. I’ve done all the emergency preparations. I have 3 emergency backup babysitters, after school care programs that provide transportation just in case the babysitters can’t make it, and I’ve read just about every book related to adults going back to school and I still feel unprepared. What’s a girl to do? Get a mojito after work maybe? Yea, that sounds divine!
I was talking with my hubby last night and I’m not sure if he’s as supportive and I thought he was. He just kept finding reasons why I would fail instead of reassuring me that things would be fine. Sure, I like the fact that he loves me enough to be honest, but seriously he made me want to punch him. Violence is never the answer, but it would have felt so good.
I’ve been wondering if he’s been so pessimistic because WHEN I do succeed and become a lawyer, I will make more than him. Could it be resentment? I don’t want him to feel inadequate, but at the same time I don’t want to stop following my dreams so that his ego isn’t bruised. I’ve read blogs about women who are more successful than their spouse and it’s caused a lot of problems in their marriage. We have enough of that crap already, goodness knows I don’t want anymore. Any insight?
I’ve been anticipating this day. US News is revealing their top schools for the school year and I can’t even get online. My boss says that the site is going to crash because there are a million hits to that page a day. Damn it!
I’m eager to see if my favorite universities made the list. UC, UCONN, and UGA. I know the list doesn’t count for much in what the school is teaching and the opportunities that it has for the students, but I found a lot of valuable information that helped me decide which college/university I will attend once I’ve made it over the Community College hump. I like the co-ops that UC has to offer so I’m thinking of getting my bachelors there, and I hear that UGA has a great law school…I don’t know anyone that has
TexanNewYorker replied:
You can do it, you can do it, you can do it. Remember me telling you about my mom getting her masters while teaching full-time and raising me and my little sister? She had the help of my wonderful father, but guess what? SHE was the primary breadwinner in the family, though I never knew it ’til much later in life. My dad was never emasculated by my mother; they were a good team. I’m sure your DH will learn that the money he brings in does not equate to his worth in life, and that you two, being one flesh, are a team working to raise your family. Stick it out, follow your dreams, and remember to nurture him, too, and though the road will be bumpy, I’ll be praying you make it far along.
August 22, 2007 at 9:38 pm. Permalink.