A number grade
Not only am I about to embark on an education adventure (30 days and counting), but so is my 6 year old. He’s starting 1st grade (“Mommy, I’m gonna be in a number grade now!”) Yes, honey you sure are and that signifies that so much of our lives are changing. I’m losing my baby and that’s killing me 
. It’s a cliche thing to say, but it really does seem like only yesterday that I was teaching him how to walk, and how to count to 10. Oh the joys and sadness of parenting. Tears aside for a moment. I’m really excited for MJ. He’s such a precious kid who loves bugs, mud, and everything that mommy doesn’t.
Going into 1st grade is a big deal for him and I’m glad that I get to share the moment. There will be lots of pictures and lots of mommy tears, because I cry about everything related to my children.
Other than that stuff above there’s really nothing else going on in my life. I’m “working” which translates into sitting in front the my computer, at my job blogging. I should really get something done, but to be honest. There’s nothing to do. Maybe I’ll read some new articles and blog about them later.
Beginnings
Oh yay my first post! Now that the design of this blog is close to what I want, it’s time to add a few words. So, where do I begin?…
I knew this would happen. I get all excited about my decision to go back to school and create a better life for me and the kids,then I make another decision to journal my life through this blog, and now I have nothing to say. Go figure!
I don’t want to get all sappy and write about how I got pregnant at 17 & then again at 19 and dropped out of high school…no, that would be wayyyy to much to soon. So maybe I’ll just let you know that I got my GED a few years ago and thought that it was the greatest thing since s-e-x and soon realized that while it opened the door for call center work as opposed to being a waitress (which lasted all of 3 months) my entire life, I still didn’t find any solace. So, here I am 25 years old and about to embark on a new path. A path that leads to the world that is Community College. Am I excited? Oh course I am, why wouldn’t I be? After all I’m about to be placed in a room full of children fresh out of high school and possibly completely annoying as well. Let’s not mention that I have always thought of myself as being the young one, now I’m about to be the old one. Hmm…I don’t like that idea so much.
Others Like Me
I’ve found a ton of blogs that I absolutely love. Especially her , but I would love it even more if I can find a blog about a mom just starting college in general. I’m nowhere near law school and I won’t be for awhile, but I would like to meet other moms (or non-moms) who decided that it was better late than never to start college. A little motivation goes a long way! Help a chick out would ya?!
Balance
It’s important that I find some sort of balance in my life. Having to deal with family, school, and now work leaves me feeling stressed out and irritable at the end of the day. I’m sure there are several other things that contribute to that, like my eating habits. It doesn’t help that they mimics that of an obese teenager. I’m still working on the issue though. There are some restaurants near my job that seem to cater to those of us who are trying to get rid of watching our waistlines, so I’ll check em out tomorrow. Today, I’m skipping lunch (I know, I know!) but I have some research to do that I can’t risk not doing.
The school term is almost over and it has by far been the worst experience of my life. I haven’t made it to a single math class this week and I’m dropping my English Comp class. My instructor and I had a disagreement and I don’t think I will be treated fair because of it. I know, it seems a little juvenile, but it’s the honest true. It’s quite interesting how all of this came about, but that’s a blog for another day. So tomorrow I’m stopping by the school to withdraw from the class and register for another next term. For now I just need to focus on passing the rest of my classes!
Well On My Way
I have been a googling fool lately! I’ve been all over the net reading articles and researching effective ways to save money, make money, lose weight, and eat properly. I have to tell you that it’s been very interesting to say the least. I have taken more notes in the past week than I have in my entire life and that does not include school related work. I found some really good information on fitness and health from here and some fairly descent receipes from over here. So far I haven’t implimented the advise, mainly because I am trying to wait until I am offically moved into my new home and close to a gym so that I can get everything started all at once. Huh, when I read that sentence to myself it sounds like a crap load of excuses, but I promise you, that’s not true. In my opinion timing is everything. The one thing that I have started doing is drinking more water. As a matter of fact I have eliminate pop all together. While I can’t tell that drinking water has caused me to lose any weight, I can say that I am more focused and energectice than I have been in a very long time. Cheers to water!
I found two great finanical sites that specifically cater to women, so when you have the chance, check them out. Ms. Money and Womens WallStreet. More on that later…
Mo Money vs. No Money
I’m getting rid of the car, yep you heard me. I’m going to start taking the bus from here on out. Looking on the bright side of it all it’s a great way to save the environment and I can get some much needed exercise! Oh and I’m saving about 400.00 (car note, insurance, and maintenence) a month. Good deal huh? Yea, that’s what I’m thinking. Yea me!
My interview went fairly well and I think that I have a j-o-b. I don’t want to get a head of myself but it seems as if things are beginning to look up. Still I have to remember to take things one prayer at a time, one day at a time.
I’ve never been one to admit to my mistakes, but in order to progress, it’s not a bad idea. I’m wrong a lot. I do things that I’m absolutely positive that I shouldn’t and even though I know their wrong I continue to do them. I’m told that it takes 21 days to break a habit…wish me luck!
Mundane
I have mulled over my credit report, found a few decrepencies and am on my way to debt freedom! I found a ton of ways to cut corners and that excites me more than sex…ok not really but you get the idea! I found a cheaper apartment and the money that I have left over I will use towards paying down current debt and then I’m going to call my creditors to get lower interest rates on my cards and settlements on the non credit card debt. Once I have my foot in the door at work it’s my misson to begin investing into my 401(k) and maybe in the stock market, but that’s not for a while. All of this is exhausting, but down the road I will be licking the icing off of my fingers.
I finally made it to my ENG 1001 class today and I’m in love with my teacher. She seems really tough, but that’s what I need. The only downfall is that she marked me absent by mistake and therefore I couldn’t take the test that was due today. I emailed her so hopefully all of this will be resolved on Monday morning. I’m doing fairly well in my other classes so I’m hoping to get honors this semester, but I just have to remain focused.
Kid 1 & 2 are getting ready to go to school again and I’m hoping to squeeze in some extra homeschooling just to make sure they are on track with the rest of the kids. I’m nervouse about K2 going into 1st grade because I can’t get him to focus on anything and I don’t want to hinder him. K1 is awesome and is determined to succeed so I don’t have any worries for her…not as much as I do for K2.
Young, Not So Fabulous, and Very Broke
Money was never a subject in our house as I was growing up. We didn’t talk about not having enough or not having any at all. I just remember having what we needed and mostly what we wanted. It wasn’t until I was much older that my mom told me just how poor we were. I have to say that I wish I knew then what I know now. I have no knowledge whatsoever about my finanical situation. I left it up to my husband to take care of the bills and when we couldn’t pay them I just came up with creative ways to go around them. I know that it’s the wrong way to handle things, but what do you do when you have no idea how to take hold of your money? That is where I am now. I don’t know anything about investments, or 401 (k) plans. I know how to spend money that I don’t have and rack up tons of unpaid bills. I also know that that’s not a good thing. I’m taking the first steps in creating a comfortable living for me and my family. The first thing I did today was buy finance books. Knowledge is power and the more I know the better I will be able to plan. The second step I took was opening up an ING savings account, which once I start working (I have 2 interviews next week!) I will deposit 20.00 into every week. Finally, I pulled all my credit reports and it wasn’t a pretty site, but it’s repairable. I’m excited about taking the necessary steps in improving my life, especially for my kids. I want to find a site that will let me put charts on my blog, that way I can track my progress.
School is going well, even though I missed 2 days of ENG 1001. I’m determined to do well and succeed. I’m tired of knowing what it is to struggle. I still want to study law, but because I’m only in community college I can’t get much information on the subjects I should take that will benefical to helping me get into Law School. We’ll see.
I Heart Columbus Short…Kinda
After watching Stomp The Yard a million and three times I fell in love with Columbus Short. Oh and I’m not just talking about I think he’s hot type of love. I’m talking I wanted to marry him and have his babies type of love. Then it dawned on me that I was only watching a movie and he’s a dog in real life. A sexy dog but a dog nonetheless. You see Mr. Short was dating Britney Spears and married AND was expecting a child, while dating Britney Spears. So while I think he’s the sexiest black man I’ve ever laid eyes on I think he’s an ass for what he did. Because I am only human I will continue to have night dreams about him!!!!
Feeling Sexy, not so much!
This post has absolutely nothing to do with school or kids. I was thinking about my appearance lately and how I’ve become so comfortable with married life that I sort of let myself go. Feeling sexy again is something that I am looking forward to. My plans are to begin working out again and going out more. I’m doing these things more for my own self esteem than for the sake of getting a date. I miss walking into a room and getting attention. I miss waking up in the morning and feeling good about walking around nude (when the kids weren’t home) now gravity is pulling everything down…AT 25!!! Can you believe that or am I just in denial?
3O days from now I’m going to be in a much better state than I am now. It’s all about consistency, motivation, and determination. Considering the fact that I’m about to get a divorce and am on the verge of believing that no man will EVER want me again, I have more motivation that I think I need….
